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My Thoughts on Betrayal


In the wake of all the drama happening between Jordyn Woods and the KarJenners (if you don’t know about it, don’t worry. Gwyneth Paltrow doesn’t know either), I wanted to use this blog post to discuss betrayal.

I have learned a lot about betrayal over the past couple of years. There is nothing in this world that hurts more than being left by someone you thought would never leave your life. In 2009, I my best friend lost her life. Now in no way, shape, or form do I look at her leaving this planet as betrayal. I look at this traumatic event in my life as a blessing. She was one of the greatest pieces of art to ever walk this planet. No matter what she did, I looked at her like she was the sun because she was. Ever since then, I have learned to keep this same energy for the people that come into my life.

I have a flaw of giving people the benefit of the doubt whenever I meet them. This is always the first thought that comes into my head due to the fact that I feel like I can’t really trust anyone. I will always doubt intentions. I will always doubt motive. I will always doubt the truth. It isn’t something I am proud of, but I have learned that I get less hurt if I move this way. Besides love, I feel like trust is one of the main foundations of life. The way society has progressed, and social media has developed has narrowed how trusting we can be as people.

Is this really something we can be to blame for?

Do I need to rebuild trust in myself to accurately judge the character of people in my life?

I am not going to sit on here and dwell about all the terrible things that I have been done to me by people close to me, but I will say that being reserved about the people you let in your life only works for a little while. Those things and thoughts catch up to you and I have gotten to the point now where I feel numb. I have run out of patience and grace for mediocrity in my life when it comes to the people I surround myself with.

I am the type to give and give until I have nothing left, and even when I have nothing left, I will basically take out a loan to give more! It is draining, but feeling consumed by the amount of emotion you put into certain relationships and friendships is not the move. It is also not something that anyone deserves.

This lesson has taught me that love is not being the best player on your team. Love is not buying everything under the sun to get a reaction out of someone. Love is not questioned. Love is not reserved, and neither is respect.

 

So with all of that being said, I want to leave y’all with a quote for anyone who is feeling like they are not worth it.

“Don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need. He is dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are.”

-        Christina Yang

Comments

  1. LLFebruary 25, 2019 at 11:19 AM

    Naturally that cuts both ways Kipling's "The Vampire" (https://m.poets.org/poetsorg/poem/vampire-0) throw's the cracker in the soup from a man's perspective. Either way, a society that values "me" above all else rather than a society that that values "we" will create a default culture where sociopaths are created - and the happiness of "me" is all that matters, irrespective of the circumstances.

    The goal is to surround yourself with the "we" culture and not the "me" culture, and even though there is ALWAYS betrayal, it's not the gold standard of conduct.

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  2. AmiFebruary 25, 2019 at 11:31 AM

    I don't know much about any celebrities. We kinda move in different circles.
    I find, especially as I get older, that I have no wish to waste time on relationships where I give self and receive superficiality in return. The person or persons may be nice and decent, but if they're not willing to reciprocate the depth of my feelings, I don't spend my self. Life's too short and I am fortunate enough to have several friends and family who are willing to invest.

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  3. Old NFOFebruary 26, 2019 at 7:55 PM

    Agree with LL, Social Media is damn good at creating sociopaths who hide behind keyboards. Younger generations have no comprehension of actual 'communications' required to maintain a real relationship. We is better. And do not be afraid to NOT follow the crowd or celebrity of the day. Most of them are vapid creatures who could care less about the REAL you. Friends are few, acquaintances can be many. Know the difference.

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  4. Dana HallMarch 4, 2019 at 10:46 AM

    Dear Jordyn,

    There's a wonderful song written by the late Guy Clark, entitled "The Cape." You need to trust your cape. Life is full of ups and downs, and some friendships are somewhat fleeting. Other friendships will be there for a lifetime. It's a life lesson. We learn that we're responsible for ourselves and our own happiness, which is tough sometimes.

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