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Lessons From the Boy Who Changed My World


I am feeling a lot of love in my heart tonight and I feel like this is the best time to talk about the relationship that motivated me and taught me the best things about life and got me to step out of my comfort zone in the best way possible. I wish I could disclose his name because the amount of gratitude that I have in my heart for him is unmatched because of the way he treated me and the things he taught me.

I want to start by reminiscing about the early times of our relationship. We were quite an odd couple in the eyes of basically everyone, as we ran in two completely different circles and we honestly probably wouldn’t have met each other if it wasn’t for the fact that I was hiding from a creepy guy at the fair! I don’t know what it was about him that made my heart smile and made me appreciate every aspect of life all day, every day. He made me the best version of myself.

It was sooooo out of my social norm to date someone like him. I was 16, so I was at an extremely stubborn age and very obsessed with fitting in. I only listened to a very specific playlist that featured the latest Migos, 2 Chainz, and YG tracks. Everything I did was routine (especially because I was trying to stay out of trouble after my little criminal moment that I had – sorry mom). This is going to sound so cliché and stupid, but I he showed me a new way of life. A new way to look at it. He showed me all of this through things that seemed so simple until they weren’t.

Music was a huge part our relationship. Despite our cultural differences, he always wanted to share something that would be new to me (which is now why I have an obsession with Jack Johnson) and was never hesitant to listen to the music that guided my morning routines from the 90’s. This was how we expressed ourselves. I’ll never forget the nights sitting in his car and he would always turn the volume to 15 because it was the perfect volume. These are the nights that shaped me.

Although we were young, this is the version of a man that anyone after him would have to live up to. He showed me how I should be treated and for that I am forever thankful. He came to me at a very pivotal time in my teenage years and changed my life. He taught me about effective communication, but the most important thing he taught me was that I am capable of being loved – even at my lowest points. He taught me that it isn’t hard to be thoughtful. I mean he really came up with some of the best gift ideas, promposals, date nights, and even showing up to surprise me after I yelled at him on the phone for not telling me when he was coming home from what seemed like a yearlong backpacking excursion. I don’t know if I necessarily deserved all that he was giving me at this point in my life, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.


So - to you, if you are reading this, thank you for loving me. I am so glad you are settled in your life and you look happy as can be. Thank you for teaching me and helping me grow. Our breakup wasn’t the greatest situation in the world, but you changed me as a person. I probably couldn’t have survived that year without you by my side. Wishing you and your family all of the best!!


“Keep me where the light is.” – John Mayer
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  1. Dana HallMarch 20, 2019 at 6:26 PM

    Very thoughtful reflection about someone who encouraged you to explore life outside your comfort zone.

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